Dear Jane Le, I haven’t dedicated a Tumblr post...

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Dear Jane Le,

I haven’t dedicated a Tumblr post to anyone in a little over half a year. However, you’re the first person in a long time that I’ve wanted to write about because you’ve become one of the most important parts of my life.

I remember when I first met you a couple of months ago, when I was still in school and we were going to DCON on the same bus. We met over your friendly gesture; I was hungry and you offered your sandwich. From that moment on, we were friends.

At DCON, we were never by ourselves. We were always with our divisions and bonded together as Division 10. Everyone would talk, have fun, and bond. It was the highlight of my senior year and I won’t ever forget it. On the ride back though, we started talking. At first it was just awkward questions and random comments, but I knew there was more. You didn’t want to talk about it until Diana told you that I listened to her problems all the time and gave her advice. After that, you opened up and told me about your past.

Fast forwarding a couple a months and now we’re at Region 13 Picnic. The few months after DCON were mostly calm; we only talked online every now and then, but we were close because of our Key Club family. We talked, we had fun, did our spirit thing, hugged, and went home.

Fast forwarding a couple of weeks and we’re at the Ice Skating Fundraiser for my division. We didn’t talk much during the fundraiser because I hate ice skating and what it does to my foot. However, we all went to Island’s afterwards and ate. I forgot who we sat down with, but I do remember Betty and Brandon. I remember how you spotted me and everything. After a lot of talking and eating, we hugged and went home.

And once more, we shall fast forward to the Region Beach Cleanup. It was here that I remember we talked and had a lot of fun with everyone. In fact, you took pictures with me when I was sleeping.. haha.. I also remember you talking to me about him and how he asked you out, how you guys talked at the picnic, and etc. etc. I don’t remember much from this day, but I remember you were really happy.

By this time, school had started. You became a sophomore and I had already graduated from high school. However, we began talking more and more on Facebook. We began talking about our problems, our friends, and Key Club. Even though I graduated, I’m still pretty active in my old division. By this time, I could drive and I had a lot of free time on my hands. I don’t quite remember how many times we hung out, but I know you asked me to pick you up from school. I brought you to Factory Tea Bar for the first time and introduced you to your favorite drink there to this day.

Over time, we began hanging out every two weeks. It’d be either Factory or JJ Cafe. When we would go there to chill or eat, we’d talk about everything whether it be relationships or family. We began opening more and more to each other, we began finding out so much about each other, we became best friends. I would drive you everywhere and introduce you to my friends and bring you along. I would always pick you up and then take you home before 7 or 6. I would always pick on you and speak Vietnamese with you. We became really close.

And then Fall Rally happened.

This was the best Fall Rally ever. I went out of my way to meet people. For the first year, I had a free hugs and free kisses sign. I pumped up my division and led us in cheers. We won the spirit stick. It was amazing. What amazed me even more though… was you.

Right off the bat, you were the first girl I kissed on the cheek at Fall Rally. When the spirit session came and I turned around to see you cheering for us, it hit me really hard. I was so touched and emotional. As soon as I saw you encouraging your division, I joined you in your efforts and Division 10 was once again all together.

What got us though was your hug. When I saw you crying, we ran towards each other and embraced each other. You cried in my arms and told me that you were so happy for my division. I was so touched at the amount of love you had, the amount of compassion you showed for our Key Club family.

I always sorta had feelings for you. I didn’t want to ruin our friendship though so I never spoke up. I always wanted to maintain a brother/sister relationship with you so that we could get close and not let anything get in the way of us. You would always talk about your guys and I would always talk about my girls. However, when you told me that I was the only one whose arms you wanted to be in when you were crying after the spirit session, it got me. I couldn’t deny it or hide it anymore.

So I told you that I had feelings for you. And to my surprise, I found out that you had feelings for me also.

It was amazing what we talked about. After much talking and debating, we finally agreed to be boyfriend and girlfriend. We were so happy. You were crying, I was tearing up, people were surprised. That night was a crazy night, where we would make fun of each other and everyone would message us and talk to us about our relationship.

Right now, you can’t even begin to fathom how much I love you. How you told me that you would always choose me, how you told me that fuck what anyone says about us, all these things, they just pulled me towards you. It’s only been a day and we haven’t even seen each other since Fall Rally and I’ve had so much fun with you just being online.

I know I’m not the best looking guy or the smartest, but I promise I will take care of you. I promise I won’t let your best friend down. I’m the first guy she trusts to date you and I won’t disappoint her. I promise that I’ll continue being there for you and continue making you smile and laugh. I will see you through your worst and be there to see when you’re at your best.

I know the age gap bothers us a bit, but we both know it won’t stop us. I told myself I wouldn’t get into anymore relationships or anything, but yet, I break my own rule again. However, I know I won’t regret anything this time around. With you, I want to try, I want to give everything, because you make me so happy. I want to hold your hand, I want you in my arms, I want to kiss your lips. I want us to make many happy memories, I want us to mature and change together, but most importantly, I want us to be happy.

Our relationship is the symbol of our divisions being together and I can assure you, I won’t let anyone down. I promise you that I’ll take you for a leisure ride around my car someday and play some Sex Pistol songs. I love you, Jane Le.

♥